It's been almost a year that i haven't written in my xanga...cuz obviously i've been on myspace. haha

 

Life for me i guess has been all awesome possum. Or at least i like to say that. I've been having my ups and downs and somehow i always seem to get through...But then again I have those stoOpid low times when something soO little in my life crumbles, and i seem to let everything else around me crumble. It's just soO hard for me to deal with all the crap in life. BUT  i know that this is all a test put by god...

 

In life, we are given obstacles and tests in which most ov us pounder over and we eventually fail. But to overcome our obstacles, we must not give in to the hurt and pain...we must take it all in as a learning experience and think positively. The life we live depends on us as humans. In life, we can either choose to think about the negative that is occuring and remain down...OR we can choose to think about the positive aspects of life and KNOW that the negative we are facing now is just temporary.

 

All the hurt and all the pain that we feel...are feelings that we have no control over. But how we can go on in life are things that we have control over.  We don't choose to feel the pain that we feel. But we do choose to live in missery. think about it...

 

someone once said..."PAIN is ENIVITABLE, but MISSERY is OPTIONAL."

 

...someone told me... "We all actually have soo much to live for. and that there is soO much happiness in our lives. But we never stop to think about those things. " he said...that "whenever we are put down, we feel low and only think about the negative," that "we forget about the positives and the happy times we have had."

 

He told me this over and over...even when we weren't together. and he always thought that all he said was a waste of time. He never thought that I listened to him. and hey i don't blame him for thinking that way because i always showed him that i was weak. And i never ever proved to anyone that i was strong. When something in my life crumbled, i let everything around me crumble. It's not that i didn't listen to him or i never heard him. It's just that i never took it to consideration. It's just now that i'm beginning to realize it all. His words and its significance. All of this i will forever keep in my heart...for words can speak louder than actions...